My mental health sucks today. I feel like maybe I should take a break from it all. I need to finish this project, but I’m super broke right now. But I’m also not mentally stable right now. I need a permanent bed rest. I feel like I need to be bedridden for awhile. I wanna turn off my phone for a whole year or two, and just sleep and recuperate my head.

If anyone needs someone to work on their audios, or demo reels and perfect it. I am currently available. Shoot me a DM. ❤️

Being me is really hard. No one understands it, they just assume that someone’s an asshole for the sake of being an asshole but they don’t understand my point of view. People just wanna villainize everyone.

When I don’t take drugs, I can become super creative but it turns me into a very socially awkward person, when I take drugs, I become normal again, but I’m less creative. it’s hard.

The VA community is so toxic, people would rather side with someone with more followers than someone like me, that’s the cold truth. Society doesn’t care about people with skills or talent, just people with followers. I can’t be both punk and professional. I can try, but I’m more of a creative individual than a casting guy, I can’t talk to people, I can communicate. I’m just not build for that level of talking. But no one gets it. Not understands, they just assume he’s an asshole. I’ve seen so many people just up and leave the community and it’s sad. I have so many creative ideas, but I feel like my time has passed. I’m not trying to get into an industry, I’m just trying to finish some projects and disappear.

Maybe I should just hire from fiverr or something. I just wanna finish some projects and vanish honestly. I didn’t need someone to post Discord DMs to Twitter. But no one can ever let it go, someone always has to have an ego trip. Doesn’t matter. Oh well.

The world has changed.

i don’t even care anymore. I just want drugs. Nothing else matters anymore. Good bye everyone.

it’s unfortunately, the world has changed. The community used to be amazing. Now it’s just full of bigots, and rich ego driven kids.

it’s sad. 10 years can change a community.

people need followers, and attention to be great at something. You can’t have natural talent in something. Professionalism and talent shouldn’t be mixed because sometimes talent breeds from randomness.

everyone always want the last word in, like they’re some kind of main character, just ignore. It doesn’t matter. What matters is you, that you can do something they can’t. Don’t be like me.

the dream is dead, and honestly, I’m probably dead too. Atleast I paid everyone. So I don’t feel guilt for that. I have nothing, and honestly. I want no one’s pity. I want them to be better than me, I don’t want anyone to be like me and that’s a good thing.

all my role models have died, or just became a shell of who they used to be. But I hope not to follow that. I have faith in you, who ever you are. Always have, you can do what others can’t. Don’t be like me.

Starting today I'm back in my motion comic making ways.

I need a male lead for voice work

and an OST

And that's about it.

I gotta improve from my last works. This time I've created a script, I have access to a recording booth, gonna put in SFX, and incorporate a more natural sounding recording. I took a 8-9 year hiatus as I was super young, I was naive, and I was worried about my future. But no longer feeling that way anymore. I have an outstanding idea and a bit of a roadmap.

It's been 9 years since I last posted. How time flies. I looked at my own news. Damn I can't believe I used to be that immature. I'm not too different from how I used to be. But I'm more committed to ideas now. I'll try uploading my old projects here.

That is good news!!! I will tell everyone about the good news. We will do more stuff on the Fisheye Placebo dub but for now we are just thinking guys.

I hope Yuumei will be please to hear that her work got 4th place.