Being me is really hard. No one understands it, they just assume that someone’s an asshole for the sake of being an asshole but they don’t understand my point of view. People just wanna villainize everyone.

When I don’t take drugs, I can become super creative but it turns me into a very socially awkward person, when I take drugs, I become normal again, but I’m less creative. it’s hard.

The VA community is so toxic, people would rather side with someone with more followers than someone like me, that’s the cold truth. Society doesn’t care about people with skills or talent, just people with followers. I can’t be both punk and professional. I can try, but I’m more of a creative individual than a casting guy, I can’t talk to people, I can communicate. I’m just not build for that level of talking. But no one gets it. Not understands, they just assume he’s an asshole. I’ve seen so many people just up and leave the community and it’s sad. I have so many creative ideas, but I feel like my time has passed. I’m not trying to get into an industry, I’m just trying to finish some projects and disappear.

Maybe I should just hire from fiverr or something. I just wanna finish some projects and vanish honestly. I didn’t need someone to post Discord DMs to Twitter. But no one can ever let it go, someone always has to have an ego trip. Doesn’t matter. Oh well.

The world has changed.